Somedays (like today) I feel like I have no where to go - no where to turn - no one to talk too … Where did my life go wrong? Why do I feel alone with problems so heavy it would take an army to lift.

I just want an out. A do-over. Heck at this point I’d even settle for a pause button …

I know I’ll figure it out I just wish that the tears didn’t come more. …

My dinner! I can be more excited with my slow changes in my eating … Before when I ate salads this bowl would be overflowing with salad meats veggies bacon double the croutons and too much ranch dressing now it’s half the bowl some protein and oil for dressing … and I’m actually starting to like it after changing stuff around each night! NSV :)

Day 4 :: 60 Day Challenge

Day 4 (02.28.2012) 
Do you work out? How many times a week?

I usually work out around 4 days a week … but i’m really trying to bump it up to 6 days, increase the length and vary the workouts … 

Day from Hockey Sticks …

So this morning I woke up thinking I’d try to do a “day in the life” kind of blog entry for today … but ya that didn’t work out … I forgot half way through the day what I was suppose to be doing… :?

My food today was great … till after supper.  

Breakfast was some oatmeal made with almond milk and some fruit and pb … ended up being pretty gross so I only ate half of it … I’ll try it again another day with some different combos..

Snack was some Carrotts

Lunch was some kale leaves, croutons, shredded cheese, cherry tomatos, olive oil and a veggie burger cut up oh and some strawberry yogurt with more fruits 

Snack was chocolate teddy grams … (I NEEDED CHOCOLATE) 

Dinner was some homemade chicken fingers and a bit of honey … DELICIOUS!!! 

and then … disaster strikes … The Daytona 500 is on tonight because of the rain the past few days … and I just eat like 3/4 of a pint of Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked …. 3/4 OF A PINT!!!! WTF was I thinking??????  Clearly I was not. 

I guess I shouldn’t’ be too upset with my day overall though … can’t expect my days to be perfect and if I had eaten like crap all day I probably would have still eaten the ice cream which then would have been WAYYYYYY worse … but aggrevating I can’t do anything right … or at least the way it’s suppose be done. 

Now I have a million and one dirty dishes to do (no seriously … like every one I own) and 2 loads of laundry to do … not to mention plan my meals for tomorrow and pick out my clothes (oh wait … I need to wait till the laundry is done) but all I really want to do is sleep but I need to do all that AND exercise for the day oh and sleep too … at a reasonable hour … 

ARGH! 

oh and did I mention work was hell today?  No really it was … 

Day 3 :: 60 Day Challenge

Day 3 (02.27.2012) 
Do you count calories? What is your daily calorie goal/allowance?

 I don’t actually count calories … I follow the weight watchers plan so I count points … and when I get better at that and complete my program I’ll switch to counting calories … 

But … I do try to keep an eye on them … 

it’s 36 minutes past my bedtime … (well more before I’m done)

So I decided that this week I was going to be in bed by 9 and read till 930 and then it was lights out and that I would be getting up at 500 each morning that should be around 7-7.5 hours of sleep a night … should be plenty - 

However, here it is past 930 and I’m still up and still on the computer and still watching TV!  Why?  Because I decided it would be a GREAT idea to have a pepsi at oh … 7pm at night … it’s going to be a long night :( I have no idea on my reasoning - in fact I probably didn’t even realize I was drinking it … Another :( 

But on the plus side … My breakfast, snacks and lunch are packed for tomorrow - on the downside … I have no clean laundry so I guess I need to start that before I go to bed so I can wake up early and switch it and then go back to bed for an hr till it’s done LOL even though I know I should be cleaning house and *gasp* exercising during that time … but I know me I won’t … but hey … I’ll give it a good effort … I will I promise … 

I need to go find something productive to do now … goodnight! 

No wonder the world is FAT!

I just went grocery shopping and spent like $60+ on food for my fridge and all I got was stuff (that i’m probably not even going to like) a rabbit would eat … and I mean rabbits arn’t even SKINNY!  

I don’t know how I’ll be able to afford this in the long run … but I guess I’ll have to figure it out …. 

PANIC mode setting in *breath*

Day 2 :: 60 Day Challenge

Day 2 (02.26.2012) 
What is your MAIN reason for wanting to lose weight? (Be Honest.)

Well my main reason is to be healthy so that later on in life I don’t have problems that it’s too late to fix.  But I also want a few other things:

*To be able to shop in any store I want whenever I want
*To be able to fit into airplane/stadium/restaurant booths and be comfortable and not have people around me uncomfortable because I can’t
*I want to be able to wake up in the morning and just run or participate in something that will make others take notice.  
*I want to be able someday be a motivational speaker or a program director about the effects of being overweight and how it’s not just THAT easy to fix … how there are emotional factors that one needs to move beyond … I want to fix it at an early age … to allow others to see that it’s not a life choice it’s a disease.
*To not be so tired all the time and have a better memory and more energy! 

*AND to show all those out there that diss’d me or thought I wasn’t good enough for that that they loose and that I didn’t need them anyways … I want the chance to be the one that says NO this time around :) 

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